Seven Story Publishing

The deepest pain is never intentional 
Which is why good intentions lead to hell 
Took a wrong turn with my actions to be unconventional 
I ended up hurting you, but I couldn’t tell 

The flames of my own mind consumed me 
And I had no space for you 
It wasn’t until I saw you crying by yourself 
That I realized your pain was deep and true 

So consumed with my own internal battles 
Making everything about me 
Trying to become antifragile but 
There was one thing I failed to see 

Someone who has real love for me 
Someone who cares deeply 
Someone who gave me their heart to hold and 
I swished it around and dropped it recklessly 

But this isn’t about me, I’m not the one in pain 
To see you crying on the floor fills me with 
The deepest shame 

To know that I hurt the one I love the most 
And it isn’t the first time 
Entertaining meaningless thoughts while 
The only person that matters was  
Standing in front of me the whole time 

The fact you’re still here is a miracle in itself 
Maybe that’s because you’re a miracle in itself 
Reckless, arrogant, and self-absorbed is what I am 
And yet you accept and love me for all I am 

I’m done putting you through hell, unintentionally 
I now see you’re on my side and by my side 
It was my own mind making me think you were the enemy 

Clouding my judgment and impairing my vision 
Leaving us a mess because you tried to show me 
And I refused to see, you tried to tell me and I  
Refused to listen 

You opened your arms, and I closed mine 
You opened your heart, and I hid mine 
And even though we were on the same vine 
I was somewhere else at the same time 

Now I see you’re not the enemy and that 
The end of you is the end of me 
Not married yet but we are one flesh 
Hurting you is hurting myself and with 
Each breath I will do the best I can 
To make sure you don’t regret 
Giving your heart to me, putting all 
Doubts to rest 

Pain was the disease I gave 
Love is the remedy 
We’re in this together 
We're not each other’s enemy 
For now I see the end of you is 
The end of me 
The end of us 
God 
Faith 
Love 
Trust 
All of these need to be rebuilt 
And I will lead the way since I’m the one  
That caused the pain 
Until both of us are healed.